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Tonedeff - Optimist

from Asterisk​:​Four by QN5 Music

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Indirectly spawned by the things intrinsic in singer/songwriter Tori Amos’s music – the brutal honesty, the distinct haunting melodies, the dynamic compositions, and the self-produced nature.


Tonedeff - "Optimist"
© 2010 QN5 Music (ASCAP)

Life is wonderful.
Life goes full circle.
Life is wondeful.

Sometimes I hate everyone and everything – to the world itself
Even though I’m the portrait of health and been blessed with many things
Cause when it seems life’s beginning to take a splendid lead
Suddenly, everything tends to lean negatively
I used to feel my luck was bled from me at seventeen
Because ever since positive outcomes have been seldom seen
They tell me that bouts with doubt can self-fulfill prophetically
And that’s prolly why John & Paul said that it’s best to let it be
And I use to be the cat with plenty kinetic energy
Happy go lucky, Mr. Follow-Your-Dream-And-Set-It-Free
But over the years, son, I’ve been jaded to the Nth degree
I hate it, cause my sense of grief is blatant and my friends agree
See, people’s selfish deeds lead to my bleak expectancy
(Like) If I catch the E, I never expect to see an empty seat
(Nice) But in typical fashion, this’ll pass until my next defeat
Until I’m stressing deep and forced to beg and plea – till then we’ll sing.

Life is wonderful.
Life goes full circle.
Life is wondeful.

They say I’m a natural born pessimist – and that’s fuckin wild
Must’ve come with my mother’s smile and father’s bullheadedness
I pull ahead and get pulled back, but I keep struggling
Son, I feel like I couldn’t catch a break beat juggling
Still I reach upward and on, and proceed trudging along
As I lead these brothers in arms, to achieve what’s in our hearts
But the scene’s shrugging us off, so…
I just remember that every dream comes with a scar when I see something I want
When it seems nothing is wrong, well – I gotta keep telling myself to stop
Waiting for the other foot to drop
Live in the moment, sit on the throne and just take a look from the top
It’s a whole other perspective to see the good that you got
Now, if it’s an omen, quit with the moaning! Don’t let it push you to flop
That’s like being spooked at the doc since you was a baby, still shook from the shot
Don’t imagine a tragic end to the book, when there’s not
You gotta try to rewrite in spite of how crooked the plot.

Now, when you go this long uphill, you lose the will to climb it
So, I wrote this song to remind me of the silver lining
In a world this wrong, gotta carry a sword that’s strong
And slice ‘em all with smiles, y’all – I fight ‘em as I kill with kindness
Nobody wants a Bitter Benny or a Debbie Downer
Or a Sad Sam that be wrapping a wet blanket around them
Keep a sunny disposition – Breathe Out
Cause life has a way of stripping the paint off of your dream house. It’s simple.
Indeed these things seem to be easy to see
But they easily flee your mind as you find repeated deceit
Now, there’s reasons the weak of will never dream or believe
Before they leap, they concede to defeat and agree to retreat
Now, when fatigue has really got you by the balls
Remember that if you really didn’t believe you’d succeed, then you wouldn’t have tried at all
So, jump regardless of the consequence
Cause even on the night of the apocalypse, everybody’s an optimist.

No matter how hard it seems.
There’s always someone in another position.

So, when it rains, just hold on.
When it’s gray, just hold on.
When there’s pain, just hold on.
When it rains.

And when it rains, think dry skies.
When it’s gray, think bright lights.
When there’s pain, just smile, smile.
When it rains.

I know it seems everyday is a struggle to keep yourself outta trouble
This modern jungle is jumbled with muddled puzzles to stump you
And snipers gunning to stumble you, like you’ve been hunted
Dude, how the hell are you telling us ‘Life is wonderful’?
Some of you have come to conclusions/assumptions, But nothing as true or stunning
That misery becomes something that’s comfortable
Trumping the will to shun it. Run from it if you’re stuck in a rut or two
So, I figured I’d drum up something I could hum to you.
(Like this)


from Asterisk​:​Four, released March 13, 2007
Written & Produced By: Tonedeff for QN5 Music (ASCAP)


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